Apr 27, 2016

A Window...

 
 There is a saying...
 
When a Door Closes,
a Window Opens...
 
I have heard this a lot lately...
 

for you see,
 
last Fall my husband left...
 
he just went to work
and never came home again...
 
I was happy,
he said he was happy...
 
I never saw it coming...
 


 
the seasons,
have been a mirror
of my soul...
 
the Winter
 was cold and dark...
 
this Spring
as the ground thawed
so did I...
 
The garden began
to stir,
as did I
 





 
the garden is now filled
with beauty,
with fragrance...
 
with my hands deep in the soil...

the earth awakens me,
it will heal me...
 

 
I am looking
out the window a lot these days...
 
 I see Sunshine
I see Bright Blue Skies..
 
It is time
 to Open the Window...
 
I will be fine...
 
 ......
 A million hugs to all of you
 who have sent me well wishes...
 
you have no idea
 how much they have meant to me...
 
I'm always so happy you stop by...

34 comments:

Victorian1885 said...

Hello Bella
Although I have not left a comment in a while I have enjoyed my visits to your lovely Blog...
Life brings many changes and although there have been dark times for you in the past months I know you will be strong and carry on...there is something new and exciting to come...I just know it!
Take care..
Hugs,
Wanda

Shelia said...

I'm so sorry for what you've been through but am so happy for your attitude. I'll be saying a prayer for you for the Lord to lift you up, give you sustaining peace and guidance.
Blessings,
Shelia ;)

Lady of the Woods said...

Hello Bella
I haven't been commenting much either as I have not been blogging much so I don't see many new updates from my favorites, but I wanted to share my heart and strength with you now. I do know what you are going through. Your words are optimistic and I pray they are sustaining. There are times when we do not have the strength and your love of the soil and flowers, your Gardens will be your strength when other people may not be around. Your cultivation of that love will keep you in a cocoon of embrace in Mother Nature. She will revive you in a tangible way when words do not console or solitude seem overwhelming. I applaud your focus on this path, you will find more rewards and gifts there than you can imagine. There is always surprising blessings when we give ourselves over to the Gardens, the outer manifestation of the inner. This is the womans true first love, and one must meet here there. warmest hugs, Serena

Gee Singh Newbanks said...

Hello Bella,
I'm so sorry for what you have been through. Your attitude is amazing. So much better than mine when that happened to me. I threw myself in the drain of despair and wallowed for a bit...Then came the anger. Now, I am older, and I would hope that I would be better about it had it happen now.
But like you said... That door closed, and a glorious window opened. :) I found me!! And then found happiness :)
Big hugs.
Gee

Mary@mydogsmygardenandmary said...

Dear Bella,
I am so sorry about all that has happened. That is very true, when a door closes a beautiful window opens.

You seem to have bounced back and enjoy being in the garden with your girls. Have faith. it will all work out in the end.

I wish you peace and happiness.

Hugs,
Mary

Janneke said...

I fully can imagine how hard past winter was for you, but I'm also very glad you 'opened your windows' again, let the fresh air in and enjoy the beauty of your garden again. You are strong and I'm sure you will find happiness again.

Judith @ Lavender Cottage said...

This news makes me sad and I've seen it happen before. You have expressed what has happened and your emotions eloquently Bella and I hope the gardens and your girls will help to soothe your soul.
Hugs and prayers for you.

Carrie B. said...

I was so excited to see you back Bella and posting more and I loved catching up, until this post. My heart breaks for you and I'm so sorry you're going through this. Sending prayers for continued strength and healing. I couldn't picture a more beautiful soothing place than outside your windows at your gorgeous gardens. Keep that window open...

Blessings xoxo

Betty from My Irish Cottage Home said...

I am so sorry and my heart goes out to you. I will put you in my prayers.

Sandi@ Rose Chintz Cottage said...

Dear Bella,
This makes me sad. I am so sorry you had to go through this. But you know, you have a wonderful attitude and in the end, you will be happy again. You may be able to help someone else along the way who is going through the same thing. It's true, when one door closes, a window opens. You have a beautiful garden and so many times you have shared all that beauty with us here in Blogland and we so appreciate it. Take care, dear Bella. My thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Blessings,
Sandi

Alessandra said...

I 'm so sorry for you and i will pray for you. Thanks for sharing all the beauty of your fairy garden
Hugs
Alessandra

LV said...

Time takes care of a lot things we thought so awful. You faced the situation and made the best of it. Someday, you will look back and think it might have been for the best. Use your inner strength and all will be well.

Deborah Cline said...

Bella

Love your blog, frequent it often looking for those roses. Go outside, scream, yell, cuss and even throw something! Get it all out and find something or someone to love! Life is short open up all the windows and breath in your beautiful fresh garden air!

Debby
Debbygoesshabby.blogspot.com

Larry said...

Bella... I am so saddened to read this but am also encouraged by how brave you are in the face of something so difficult.... you are in my thoughts and I wish you the best as you move on.... Larry

Larry said...

Bella... I normally seldom leave comments but was taken aback by your post... I am so sorry to read this and despite not knowing you personally, can't help feeling very badly for what you are going through... you are in my thoughts as you navigate these difficult times... you seem to be very brave and strong.... my best to you... Larry

Debbie said...

Bella my heart goes out to you I know the hurt and betrayal is more then we can bare at times. We don't always get the dreams we wanted or planned for in our lives but God can take our broken dreams and make something so beautiful out of our lives and I know he is in the process of making you even more beautiful. My prayers and love to you sweet Bella.

an angel at my table said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through dark times but I admire your attitude and your strength. You will come out strong after this and I am sure there is something new and exciting to come for you in the future. That all depends on ones mind set and it seems like you are there if not now but soon. So cheers for the future!! We can all see how much beauty you have inside someone that have created what you have done with your garden must have a beautiful sole!!!!
Lots of love from Sweden

LadyJ said...

The strength of a woman - nothing compares to it. May your garden continue to grow in more ways than one. God bless.

http://deezie-sunshinedeezines.blogspot.com/ said...

Bella
You will be in my thoughts and prayers* I can't imagine how you are feeling, I am so sad for you. Please know you have alot of people praying for you.Take care Bella
deezie

Susan Stillwell said...

Thank you for sharing your beautiful post. I am so very sorry. I'm glad you have the love and support of Daisy, Iris and their brothers to comfort you.

Keity said...

Dear friend,
How touching is this post...Time will recover his lost and you will keep only sweetness in your heart...
Warmest regards
Keity

thel day said...

HI Bella, I am saddened to read this. I missed your beautiful blog last winter and wondered if you were well.
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. You have a great attitude now that Spring is here and you garden is coming to life.
i enjoy seeing your girls and beautiful roses. I do a lot of gardening myself. It is a great passion and good for the soul.
Hugs.

FlowerLady Lorraine said...

Dear, dear Bella ~ My heart goes out to you, and prayers to God for you as you go and grow through this difficult time.

I lost my husband 3 years and almost 5 months ago to cancer and besides my faith in God, gardening has been a great healing part of my life.

Your positive attitude is a good thing to see. Beauty from ashes.

Love, hugs & prayers ~ FlowerLady

Susan said...

Dear Bella.
Such beauty on your blog! Such genuine kindness and love in your soul. Sometimes in life we do not know why things happen. We may never know in this lifetime. But for sure there is a plan for our lives. Our God is our protector and HE DOES NOT CHANGE.

I was so sad to hear of your husband's leaving. He didn't even communicate what was in his heart. However, as you say, you will be fine. You will be okay. You have a network of friends, including blog peeps, who love you (myself included) and who walk with you through this dark valley.

Your lilies of the valley (how appropriately named, too) are divine. When I was a little girl, we used to sing the song below, about lilies of the valley. Wish I could sing it for you.

Take care, dear Bella. Stay strong and peaceful. Susan

"White, coral bells, upon a slender stalk.
Lilies of the valley deck my garden walk.
Oh don't you wish, that you could hear them ring.
Only in the morning when the faeries sing."

Suzann Coombe said...

I am so sorry 😢
((((((Hugs))))))) to you. I know it doesn't seem like it but better days ahead for you. Your home and pictures are beautiful.
Suzann ~xoxo~

Beatrice Euphemie said...

Oh, Bella. I knew something was wrong.....I am so sorry to hear this. Life can be so hard....You are strong, you are beautiful, and you have such a lovely spirit. I am so glad that you are finding some joy in life again. My daughter just went through something similar - just her and her two 'girls', Peanut and Weenie Baby. Time heals. Surround yourself with loving friends and family to remind yourself just how special you really are. Here's a big hug. xoxo K

Celestina Marie said...

Dear Bella, I am so sorry to read this. Life can sure through us some curves. You are beautiful and strong and what a blessing to find your joy again. You will be fine and stronger on your journey. Your beautiful blog shows just how special you are. It has been so nice getting to know you better through fb and now here.
Sending you friendship and hugs with prayers too. xo

Debbie said...

Hello Bella.....your post is so serene, and peaceful. I hope your heart is in an okay place right now with Spring arriving in your beautiful gardens. You have always been such an inspiration to me with your writings, and images. You know the perfect words to pair up with your stunning photos...soothing ones very soul.
Thank you for sharing your story with us, Bella.
You are a treasure.
Debbie
xo

Sarah said...

Bella, I had no idea you were hurting so. It breaks my heart to know that you have suffered this pain. My little lavender poppy blooms with thoughts of you. Take care dear friend and know that friends are there for you even across the miles.

Burlap Luxe said...

OH Bella, it's been far to long since my last visit, yet meant to be at this time.
We have Iggy's in common, and a broken marriage In common. Your poetic words here really dig deep in how you feel and how you are looking forward to the warmth of the sun on your face again. I won't tell you things will get better, it's a shot in the heart that should have killed instantly, but there is a higher plan for you, and it will all come into focus in due time, and when it does it will be amazing.

I need to add you to my blog roll of inspiration and stay closer in touch with all the beauty and strength you inspire.
Love your foto's here, and your poetic words are worthy of the best in published litatire of life coaching. It's an awakening that life can throw anyone a curve, and to be compassionate to what others maybe going through.

Prayers and strength to you beautiful Bella.

Xx
Bisous

Doré

gibbygoo56 said...

I have missed you! Your blog is one of my favorites to visit for every season, as I know you have something quite special to share of yourself. I am happy you have decided you are ready to begin sharing your beautiful garden and yourself again. There is not a time I'm out in the garden planning what we should do next that I'm thinking about your garden. You inspire me. I am happy you have opened the window. God bless you Bella and your pretty pups.

Rose L said...

You are almost neighbors (I live in Oregon City, OR by Portland). The news you have shared with us all is sad. You will be going through guilt, anger, sorrow like being on a roller coaster. Now just take one day at a time. I do not know your financial situation, and that can add more stress. I will offer prayers for you.
When my husband died 3 years ago, I was left not only mourning his passing, but having to start over with only the money I got from selling our home, and I was 60. Before he died, he was disabled 10 years with physical conditions and 6 with frontal lobe dementia. My fairy tale life slowly fell apart and our dreams died.
It definitely was not easy to start all over, but it was what had to be done. I have wonderful friends and family who were supportive, even if I just needed to cry.
Allow others to be helpful, because they will want to be. I did not want to be a burden and found that they cared for me and never felt I was one.
And remember, it's okay to not always be brave.

Marilyn Miller said...

I don't normally visit your blog, but sending a hug to you as you walk through this time. You expressed it so well and I just know you will be healed of this hurt. Sending love!

June said...

I am so sorry dear Bella. I really don't know what else to say other than that. It's so hard to pass through trials that come on without any warning, and yet it seems to me that you are a woman who knows who she is and can weather this storm. Your words actually were more comforting to me than any words I could say to you. At first I was feeling so so sad for you and by the end of this post I felt assured that you were going to be just fine. I am so glad you have your gorgeous garden to comfort you and bring beautiful and light back into your life.
Just know that there is a lot of us that are praying for you the best of what that open window has to offer.

sending love...